The Loss.

Tell him how you feel

They proclaim.
So you unleash your mind
let loose your thoughts
undampen your dreams

And get slapped for your pains

Tell him how you feel

They advise.
you stagger back
open your eyes
say what you see

And get thrown down the stairs

Tell him how you feel

They admonish

you limp onward
unstitch your chest
unburden your heart

And get throttled by the neck

Squeezed,
mind running cold
blood coursing dry
heart pounding empty.

Fool.
You gave up everything...

Your mind is a void.
You see nothing now.
Your heart a dying ember.

You let the one you love tell you
that you're full of crap
that you are a joke
and watch them laugh at your pain.

They say you deserve it.

You slit your own throat.
You denied your own heart.
You killed your own dreams.

What was it all for?
You wonder.

You tried to accept thier friends
Who mocked you.
Whispering behind your back
You never knew he betrayed you.

You tried to oblige in his bed
he took his mind elsewhere
whispering in his thoughts
other women, other times.

You tried to be his family
he already had one
committing to them
what he never would you.

You lose,

They murmer.

You die,

They laugh.

No silence
No solace.

Only the eternal knowledge
that you wasted your flesh

Gave up your freedom

Bargained your soul

To a one that would use the broken carapace of your hopes
as a bucket to piss in.